[spoilers] Lucas. Just Lucas.

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I have to say that Lucas IS risking everything to keep this horrible secret hidden, and while I believe that Lucas has already paid the punishment for this secret from 15 years ago, to Lucas, he CANNOT risk the chance of it ever coming out, because he can't risk losing Maya's love or his home at MI5.

It's not about Harry's reaction or even Maya's reaction, it is strictly about Lucas and what's going on inside his own head. He simply just cannot risk ANY chance that this secret can come out, he simply cannot risk ANY chance that Harry will turn on him or that Maya will hate and reject him. What Lucas doing is now self-preservation, and THAT is a part of who Lucas is. If his survival mode didn't kick into high gear, he would not have survived the 8 years of torment in Russia. Think about it, Lucas said yes to Kachimov's plan to be a double agent so that he could get back home to MI5 and then turned on Kachimov. Why? Because in Lucas's head, he thought no one was coming for him, so he had to find a way to get himself out, even if it meant for one second pretend to betray his country. Harry didn't get Lucas back because the Russians needed their spy, he got Lucas back because Lucas himself agreed to be traitor. Lucas fought so incredibly hard to get back home to MI5, this job, this team, it's his everything, it's his whole life, it's everything he ever stood for. And if something is gonna threaten that home, then I can believe that Lucas will do anything to keep that from happening.

Lucas in survival mode will do anything to survive. He fought to get back home, he fought to keep his home, he sure as hell isn't gonna risk ANY chance that it can be taken away.

So do I believe that Lucas is willing to risk everything to keep that past hidden? I do. Because in Lucas's damaged psyche, he CANNOT risk losing this life, this home that he built for himself. If he loses that, he loses who he is. And for Lucas, it's just way too frightening, way too much hurt, that he can't allow himself to go through.

Do I think he's now a evil traitor? No, never, of course not. But he is a damaged man who is desperately trying to keep the life that he fought so hard to get back to. Lucas has already suffered through so many horrors that few people in life have ever experienced, in his mind, he cannot loose the only family, the only life he has left.

This is why he is fighting, this is why he is doing all these things and making these horrible choices, because he's frightened, he's scared, he's lost. He just wants to keep his home, his love, and his life. He's like a ship lost in the storms, trying desperately to keep holding on to the anchor that holds him to life.

The only question that I have in this storyline is why Lucas didn't just kill Vaughn? He had many chances to but didn't, there has to be a reason for that and hopefully the writers will explain it.