[spoilers] Lucas. Just Lucas.

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(30-10-2010 05:17 PM)theeyeshaveit Wrote:  I can't speak for anyone else here, but even if I agreed Lucas has the character to do the things he has done, my impression is that Lucas is an intelligent man with a great deal of respect, affection and trust for Harry and I find it hard to believe that Lucas would think the dangerous and hard to hide path he has undertaken would give him more chance of being with Maya than facing Harry and Maya with his past and with Vaughn's return to his life.

I don't doubt Lucas's intelligence nor his respect, affection, and trust for Harry. But the fact is that intelligence and affection has nothing to do with this, this isn't about a man thinking rationally, this is about a man who is in fear and doing the first thing he can think of, hiding the truth. This isn't about Lucas's intelligence, and just because he chose to take the dangerous path doesn't mean he is not intelligent, it just makes him a flawed human.

I mean, how many times have we ourselves make choices that we know are gonna get us in trouble, that we are better off just telling the truth, yet we still hide it anyways? I'm guilty of doing that so many times, always trying to hide things from my mother even though I know eventually the truth is gonna come out and that I should just tell her in the first place, but I don't, I never do. And it's the same line of thought with Lucas. It's not about intelligence, it's about self-preservation, because it's our first instinct when we do something wrong, we want to hide, we want to lie, and then that lie gets deeper and deeper until we dig a hole so far that we can't get out of. It's a very human thing to do. And god knows Lucas isn't the first nor will he be the last person to ever make that kind of mistake.

Yes in all logic sense, Lucas should know that his years of loyal service should count for something, that if he just confesses to Harry, that things wouldn't have gotten so out of control. But Lucas panicked, he wasn't thinking with logic, he was thinking about survival, he was thinking that he couldn't risk ANY chance that he would loose everything he ever fought for in this life.

Do I like Lucas's actions or agree with them? No. But I do understand his feelings.

I rate Lucas highly in loyalty, ethics, and intelligence as well, but just because he rates highly in all three, doesn't mean he is always gonna keep to that. He is not always gonna be perfect, he can make mistakes for once in his life. Even the best of us can make horrible mistakes, Lucas is not immune to that, but that doesn't mean Lucas lost his intelligence or his loyalty or his ethics, one moment that blinded him to his goodness doesn't take everything away. And for Lucas right now, he is struggling to deal with the duality of being John and being Lucas, and who does he really want to be.