[spoilers] Lucas. Just Lucas.

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(14-01-2011 02:11 PM)HellsBells Wrote:  As Byatil says though, it is interesting how Lucas is quick to trust those who hurt him, because even after he found out about Sarah's involvement with Nightingale he continued to care for her.

Sometimes I think that's Lucas's weak-point, there is a part of him that is the cold efficient MI5 agent who doesn't hesitate and does his job, but then every once in a while when he gets into these situations where he gets hurt by the people around him and then turns back around to trust them, I just see this lost little boy somehow hoping that if he just keeps on being loyal and trust them, maybe he will become important or needed in their eyes. Like a loyal dog that keeps being loyal despite horrible treatment. Unfortunately, I don't think Lucas ever got that kind of compassion since he returned. Adam tried but he wasn't around long enough to do much, and Ros, god knows Ros tried, but then again, she's not much for small-talk despite her attempts to try and protect Lucas. But still in the end he's kinda slammed with this harsh reality that the man (Harry) that maybe he had at one point in his young life had idolized and worshiped didn't really care about him as much as he thought he did.

And I think it's that desperate need to feel like he's a part of something that fuels a huge part of Lucas's loyalty and that recklessness and bravery to put it all on the line to protect his team and Harry. He's trying to show them that he can do the job, that he can be important, and that he doesn't want them to forget him or leave him alone.

The more I think about it, the more sad I am that nobody bothered to try and help Lucas deal with this. The people in his life that he should have been able to trust were the ones so quick to shun him aside. It's no wonder it drove him to such craziness in Series 9. And losing Ros probably didn't help considering she seems to be the only one who was in tune with Lucas's feelings, the way a big sister is like, something that I always love Ros for.

In all honesty, Harry had a lot of chances to turn things around with Lucas but he never bothered to take the time. Maybe if he had, maybe he showed just one ounce that he cared about what Lucas went through, then maybe, just maybe things would have been different in Series 9. In the end, Harry's own coldness towards his team was his own downfall.