Series 9 Episode 7 discussion

[BravoNine]

I swear I was crying by the end of this episode, Lucas is just breaking my heart!

These characters are like family to me, Lucas is like a big brother/uncle figure, watching him turning down this dark path, watching this John-persona coming out, it's like watching my brother turn into this evil monster. I never thought I'd see him turn into this person that I don't even recognize. I thought I knew him, all those moments alone, all those pain he suffered, all those times he protected his people and shown his loyalty, I love him so much and I put my heart and soul on the line with loving him, now it's like he's reached into my chest and tearing apart my heart. It hurts so much and I still can't believe it.

And I don't think I will ever believe it, even when this all ends, my mind will try to rationalize and accept things, but my heart never will.

I invested so much into Lucas, he's like family, and now I suppose to believe that everything I ever love and believe about him is just one gigantic fat lie? How are the writers expecting me to accept that?