[spoilers] Ruth

[A Cousin]

(02-11-2010 07:18 AM)JHyde Wrote:  You can't go through everything that Ruth has been and still be the same person. But I love who she is now. She said that she hates that she doesn't feel more now, but I beg to differ. She is still out there comforting everyone at a second's notice and distressed that she was 'cruel' to a guy who seemed to be wasting her time. Ruth is still kind to her core.

I love what they are exploring through her character this series. I don't think she has changed fundamentally either: even back in the EERIE episode, she said her job is her life. I also still see that core of her basic humanity in there for all the reasons JHyde mentions, but I don't think that she believes it anymore. There is quite a dichotomy to her character playing out. She is like a wolf gnawing off her own leg rather than letting someone close enough to help her out of the trap.

I had my doubts and question about her, but they are playing out in a way I am not sure I expected. I knew she grieved for her lost life, but I am not sure I understood the extent of it. Part of me thinks she doesn't think she is worth the air she breathes, but if that were the case, why would she fight so hard to live? Once again, dichotomy.

I too would have blown the dudes head off many times over, but I am not Ruth. For Ruth, it seemed as much a release as self preservation.*snap!* Maybe it was a release of self preservation? She was f***in' brilliant in the field, once again, but at what price? It was a very hard scene to watch, not so much because of the brutality, but because of her reactions. One of the things I love about NW as an actor is that she not afraid to look like hell and be completely unsympathetic.

Loved loved loved her last speech to Harry. If I felt sorry for Ruth before, I am howling with her now. Her words to Harry about being so strong and solid and dead inside is spoken with such contempt for herself. If she can still feel that I guess there is still hope for her.

Edited to say - sorry this is such a rambling post. I am still trying to process it all!