Episode 4 Discussion [rewatch]

[JHyde]

I think the fact that he at least mentioned that he didn't want to betray her while he prepared to hang himself means that he felt strongly about her. Especially given how much spies lie anyway. I do agree that part of him wanting to die was as much about him wanting to avoid the scenario of being a double agent though, and I'm sure that youthful idealism was partly why he fell for her in the first place.

My point is that in the absence of meaning, that void eventually needs to be filled by something in a man like Salter.